The Imagined Life by Andrew Porter

Quiet and wise, Andrew Porter’s novel The Imagined Life is a literary and psychological gem. His elegant prose is intimate, layered, and lovely. Porter’s profound exploration of thought-provoking themes, such as the impossibility of understanding one’s parents’ inner lives and the delayed effects of childhood events on adults, draws readers into an intricate web of family dynamics.

Until recently, Steven Mills resided with his wife and son in Berkeley, California. Facing challenges in his marriage and career, he embarks on a quest to make sense of his father’s disappearance. His father had been a distinguished English professor at a Southern California college. In 1984, when Steven was 12 years old, his father disappeared after being denied tenure. The narrative alternates between Steven’s vivid memories of the year preceding his father’s abandonment and his present emotional journey to uncover the truth about his father’s desertion.

Many years had passed without Steven and his mother searching for his father. Their rage and relief seemed to immobilize them. Now, decades later, Steven travels throughout California, meeting with his father’s former friends and colleagues, gathering their perspectives and asking if and where his father might be living. When Steven realizes how deep his father’s abandonment had rooted itself inside him, something shakes free.

Andrew Porter’s nuanced novel delves into loss of innocence, family dynamics, mental health, and secrets. In addition to his beautiful writing, Porter deftly depicts the complexity and contradictions inherent in every person. While the novel’s tone may be melancholy, the ending offers hope that healing is possible. 5/5